I am so sick of Media Fire and their 100000000 fucking popups that screw up my computer. Why the hell do people still use them!

So I finished going through my goods and realized that the tour shirt was left out of the package ;_; I trust the people I ordered from so I know it was a mistake. But I am still bummed! I already e-mailed them. I hope to hear from them soon, that was what I wanted most next to the posters >_<. I will be putting up photos later XD

So I just realize sometime in the last few days I deleted my forsale folder.... With all the photos that I hadn't uploaded yet from my June magazines and a ton of clothes and accessories. -_- I am incredibly agitated right now. I think all I had left to upload was Winkup as far as the magazines go.... whatever was left will go unadded till I feel like digging through all that shit which will probably be never... As for the clothes... god only knows. errr....

On another note, today's my first day in Japan and it has been interesting. I don't feel like writing everything again so here is a copy of the e-mail I set to my parents. I haven't done anything interesting really. Just getting accustomed to my neighborhood. Oh and I probably won't be posting too much b/c my internet absolutely sucks. But you can keep an eye on the facebook album link for updates.

( Day One )

A GUNDAM 00 MOVIE IN 2010! WHAT THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO DO BETWEEN NOW AND THEN!

Well I kept putting off watching the last episode because I didn't want it to end, and now I realize it's not quite over. But 2010! I don't want to wait that long!

So I am breaking down and reinstalling my operating system. No matter what I do I can't stop my desktop from crashing, so it's my only option left. I am also reformatting the entire C drive. Ultimately it's not really that big of a deal. I've backed the entire drive up to my external and I have my laptop to use. It's just a pain in the ass... -_- I am not looking forward to having to reset everything up. But what can you do, I can't keep using a computer that crashes all the time.

I had to call out of work this morning -_- It snowed last night, which wasn't a big deal to me since I am fine with driving in the snow. However.... Anderson is so unprepared for snow that there are no plows or anythings to put down dirt or salt. Which meant after digging my car out getting it stuck on the hill that I need to get over to leave my complex -_- The hill had completely iced. I called work and my manager seemed pissed, I am sure lots of people called out. I actually wanted to go in, since I have been getting good hours and having much nicer paychecks. But oh well, what can you do right?

So I had my fucking informational speech written.... And my prof wanted changes. So I spent most of tonight researching and finding close to nothing.... I simply could not do what she wanted. So now I have to fucking narrow my topic, which means basically rewriting the speech. Since what I will be writing about was only a small part of my original speech. I'm tired from work, I work all tomorrow and Tuesday, I have a damn quiz and test Monday then my graduation exam on Tuesday. WHEN AM I SUPPOSED TO REWRITE THIS DAMN SPEECH! -_- gah... I'm irritated. I know I will get it done. But being done was so much nicer than having to start from the beginning again.

So I am finally starting my final essay for my TESOL Business cert. I soooo am not in the mood to write it >_< All I want to do is watch tv. I don't want to do anything else! And there is a long list of stuff that needs to get done.... Posting my new for sales for one thing... bleh -_- Enough bitching, time to write write write... Once this is done all I have left is my TESOL Children cert. Which hopefully I can breeze through. I got through all of it pretty quickly so far, I just am sick of school! It's winter break, but I'm not getting a break!

I've been putting off reformatting my computer. It keeps crashing and the only solution I find when googeling is to reformat. >< So after it almost not restarting today I am finally going to do it. But first I have to back everything up to my second drive >< I'm hoping the problem is on my main drive. That way I can back everything up and just pop out the second drive. Wish me luck. I can't take having it crash anymore.

Edit: I didn't realize how long it's going to take to back everything up >< Looks like I will be reformatting tomorrow or Sunday at this rate...

And on a side note... I need to start exercising again. Before I started working at Kohl's I was at the fitness center daily. Now I never go, and it's starting to show >< I grew out of my new pair of jeans before I even got the chance to wear them x_x ..... I need to get back into exercising and dieting before I return to a size 15 -_-

Oh and one more thing lol. For those of you who were watching my music upload list, I plan on updating it during winter break. I fell way behind... to say the least. So once my comp is back in working order look forward to that. I probably won't bother with videos any more. But I will at least keep the music updated.

Self hate is my present state....

I know I say this at least once a month. But keeping up with my sales page is a real pain in the ass. But I need the money, so I must push on -_-

So tonight was supposed to be awesome. After work I went to my parents house to eat croquettes. ... ... ... MY STOMACH HURTS LIKE HELL I FEEL LIKE I AM GOING TO DIE! So it turns out... eating something soaked in grease when you usually stick to a low fat, low sugar, low sodium diet is a bad idea >_< I have felt like shit ever since about three minutes after eating. ... .. ;_; I was so happy to eat croquettes and they tasted so good. But why does it have to hurt so much now! In other news... I can't think of anything else but the pain I am in >_

So AU, being so kind, scheduled two classes I need to graduate for the same ACCEL time slot... -_- luckily the class is offered in about four different sessions during the day. BUT I DON'T WANT TO TAKE CLASSES DURING THE DAY! THAT IS WHY I AM A NIGHT STUDENT! Bah... Well, a Prof. that I like is teaching it Tuesday nights. So I will take it from her. It just majorly blows that I can't take it during my normal school schedule. This also means I will be taking three classes again in term III -_- since Public Speaking will end up being a full semester since its a traditional class. I had to choose to take three classes in term III or in term IV, and I sure as hell don't want to have to take three classes when I have to take my Senior Seminar. So blah... three classes again, but at least I will be on the tail end of Public Speaking once term IV rolls around. But still... AU is making life really difficult for me to graduate. I thought it was going to be smooth sailing after taking three classes this term. Oh well, at least I still get to take it...

.... I got a C in Leadership... HOW THE FUCK?! I had a 79 before the final and final project... and before my 6 points of extra credit. HOW DID I END UP WITH A C?!!?!?!? I e-mailed him to find out because I don't beleive this.... I wonder if he didn't count my Leadership Journal.... I e-mailed it to him and never got a response, but I told him I would be e-mailing it to him -_- This is so fucked up....

Why are some of the easiest assignments the hardest for me? I have a journal due tomorrow, and I still have six entries left to write. All I need to do is find an example of leadership and state which leadership style applies. But for some reason I keep getting stumped. This should not be hard at all! I managed to get two done today, but I really want to get this wrapped up so I can post last months clippings tomorrow, instead of continue to work on this stupid journal... BAH! This really has been a pain in the ass. I have been trying so hard, but for some reason I have had major writers block -_- thank god my finals are today and I have next week off from school. There is so much I need to catch up on... and so much rest I want to get XD

And .... I am loving this new icon, that photo shoot of Arashi was super sexy, and I so want to rape Sho-Chan...

I don't plan on dwelling on this topic, since there is no point. But I am so confuzed at the moment. And I wonder if this is some sort of joke. That the day I decide I like you, you decide you like someone else... It makes me wonder what type of person I claim to like.... And wonder why you couldn't be patient for one more day. Why are we in such a rush to confess? Why can't I take my time and make sure this is something I want? Isn't thinking it over for a bit better for the both of us? Not to mention, how much could you of really liked me if I'm "too late". Well fine, go be with her. But a relationship that starts in a day will end in a week. And don't call me when that happens. You dumb fuck...

That made me feel... oh so much better...

So I just preordered both versions of the latest Arashi single. I can't wait! I also plan to preorder the Aiba, Nino, and Sho photo books as well as last Princess. It's just a matter of enough pay days coming for me to be able to afford to. To say the least I won't be spending much money on anything else XD

In other news, God last week was a pain in the ass -_- But I am happy and over it now, so YAY!

And... I am a bit disappointed, I preordered Summary and K8 goods from this one girl, and I know she has them because she e-mailed me last week saying she would send them last Monday. However, I have not heard from her since. -_- I send her an e-mail a few days ago. I paid her a lot of money... I want my stuff...

As much as I enjoy selling clippings, there are people that drive me fucking insane. I have no problems with haggling, but I don't give my shit away for free. Maybe people don't realize I use this money to pay for the magazines, that I don't have an unlimited supply of cash for them. uhg.. I have some great customers, but every once and a while one person comes a long that pushes me to the point I just want to say forget it, I don't want your money!

I feel better now that I've vented... I just get frustrated sometimes -_-

Why does Stat have to be so hard? I have been busting my ass because I want to get straight A's this year, but stat is just ungodly hard. No matter how much time and effort I put into it I just don't get it!

Work, school work, work and school work....

Well I am working on my TESOL certification right now, I don't understand how someone with only a high school diploma could understand this shit because I almost have my BA and I am confused as hell. -_-

As far as getting my BA goes, I have five more classes that need to be taken. Instead of doing them all in the spring I added on an online class for Term II so I will take three classes instead of two. As long as the remainder of the classes I need are scheduled at different times I will graduate in May. If the scheduling is fucked up I am going to have to try and take what I need at another school, because I AM graduating in May damnit!

So that's it, Saturday I start Kohl's I am super excited. Friday I am going to go to my parents house and clean up my room. That way when I move all my junk back in when I graduate there is space for it.

Some how I will survive the next 9 months. I just keep reminding myself that Japan is the light at the end of the tunnel XD