Since I feel like crap and am not up for anything else I am going to comment some more on the Backstreet Boys.

Brian - Is still the only one that is super hot lol. He is one good looking man.
Howie - Has grown into his ugly. I remember him looking ... just ... not good lol. But he seems to have grown into his ugly. I don't know exactly how, but he just looks better to me. It could be that my taste in men has changed also, since I mean, I was in sixth grade last time I really thought about the Backstreet Boys.
Nick - Now I was NEVER a Nick fan, I wasn't attracted to him at all. But you know... I want him pretty bad right now XD He has gained some weight, but for his height it works, at least for me. I really dug him on Music Lovers, he just looked good. So I guess I have finally been converted to a Nick fan, something I swore I would never let happen XD
AJ - Really looks like he went through a mid life crisis lol. But I like it. He's like a male version of myself, and that makes me want him more than I did in sixth grade, which could be near to impossible. Now I just need to be told he is bipolar and I am so moving back to FL to marry him XD (why am I attracted to myself?)

So yeah, I think they have grown hotter with age. That and my opinions on male looks are somewhat different. But I like what I see none the less. I think I have watched Music Lovers four times now, I just can't get enough of it. I get so excited it's rather funny, especially since they open with "Everybody", which is my favorite song. I also find myself crying my eyes out during "I Want It That Way". Now that is something I can't explain. I don't know if I have an attachment to that song that I don't recall or if it's just the bi-polar. Which has been running wild recently so it very well could be.
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On that note, I have been so tired recently it's driving me crazy. My brain isn't sleeping at night. I have been so consumed with everything around me and it won't leave me alone for eight hours a day to sleep. Which of course makes me crankier and gives me even less control of myself then I already have. And to make matters even better my mom told me that my Dad has to go to Duke University for a Dr's appointment. She didn't have time to give me more details. Which you know, causes me to assume the worst. I made my own song about my dad having a brain tumor. I really am fucked up... Obviously we still don't know if he has one or not, thus the appointment at Duke University, but the fact that he has to go there pretty much makes me sure. So yeah, thats my excitement. I really am having trouble balancing school, work, Keifer's death, my dad and myself. But I am managing, I come home to the sexy wall, my music and my videos so I am good. I am just really physically and mentally tired. So yeah, I will give you more details once I have them. Hopefully the worst won't happen, lets stay optimistic okay? (that lame JDrama sounding shit really does work lol) But yeah, I am going back to listening to the Backstreet Boys now that I have written an essay x_X